HomeI think I’ve been pondering a lot recently about what had happened. I used to love messing around with Photoshop to make graphics, coding websites for the heck of it, writing stories to ink my imagination and wishes. Now, my sources of amusement (videos, reads, etc.) are all sort of hollow and pointless. I feel like I don’t want to sacrifice anything in order to gain happiness. I really hope this doesn’t extend to the rest of my life. That would be disastrous.
本来以为上了大学或许可以发现一些自己很喜欢的东西，可是发觉自己还是如此的没有热情.可能因为我这个人实在太怕付出，胆子太小. 我不愿去做一些自己没有把握的事…总是觉得自己只要成绩好就会高兴. 我虽然现在并不难过和沮丧可是却感到很空虚.
觉得这张桌面很好看…代表我心里那小小希望
January 18th, 2010
February 10th, 2010 at 12:39 am
aww it’ll be alright, i felt like that too. There was a time in life – when my family approached me with THE QUESTION: What are you gonna do in your life missy – which ment, what career are you going into? I was stuck on it for awhile but then i realized that i was obsessed with photoshop, photography, coding, and blah blah blah lmfao mainly art stuff. So i took all the art courses that would fit my schedule and now i’m a senior, graduating in a few months and i’m taking a graphic design course in the college that i hope i get to get in xD but yeah it’s all exciting news but it took me a really long time to find out what i was really interested in.
Before ninth grade – 9th grade, i was thinking of cosmetology and stuff but my family put me down on that and i gave up and on it then i found out adobe from my half sister and started playing with it like crazy and learning it by myself. I spent 3 years learning what a class that you would have to pay around 200 bucks to learn the software and i already learned most of the stuff that they taught in that class. Well 3 years weren’t all just for photoshop, it was also photography and web design XD i sat in front of the computer screen for hours lol the results were learning many new things and also changing my eyesight xD
But yea, it’s not too late to decide what you want to do and i don’t know what grade you are right now but my niece’s a junior and she’s still deciding. I found what i really loved to do during the last half of my junior year but i’m doing well at the moment
Anyways to hopefully make you feel better, here’s a valentine’s gift http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d165/vangstar/hpyval10.jpg
I’m so sorry for writing so much x_x